Sunday, January 28, 2007
its so exhausting, even though i dont know why.
its not even an ever since, because i dont know when it started.
i try to keep up with others, but at times it really tires my soul.
just let me be, and let me sleep, till you awaken me once again.
wishing;
12:01 AM
Tuesday, January 23, 2007
ohh noos i hate doing chinese letter writing -.- gong han si han wth!
i tink tuesdays wif morrie is v sweet. made me wanna cry when morrie was gonna die. why did they show it in school... -.- grr sighs
there's so much stuff to do, but its not that, that's been tiring me out. in fact, its still the emptiness in me that makes me feel.......nothingful. its like some part of my life is gone...and yet maybe it has never been there, just that many other things have been covering it up. i wish ill find it soon.
and i have no more kneecap on my right knee, actly it has been gone for quite a while, just that now it hurts. this sucks i cant walk up and down staircases or kneel on the floor, but i can run -.- i hope i get a kneecap soon...or spoil my other knee's kneecap, 'cause i hate being assymmetrical. yes.
bye *limps* bye.
wishing;
8:06 PM
Thursday, January 18, 2007
its been quite a tough day for me and all...and when some small trivial matters occur, i get angry so easily and tend to overlook every single detail of it. And because of this i jump to conclusions and feel bitter about the entire incident. But in the end, i realise that the whole thing was just a small matter, that my emotions had blown out of proportion.
Lucky for me, i promised myself to stop holding grudges...and infact try not to be angry with anyone for a very long while. The world's never fair, and people say i can never make a difference in this screwed up place. but ill try the best i can. and that's why im not gonna let anyone stop me from not getting angry.
"one day, i was challenged to deal wit han individual who hurt me terribly. I was faced with a decision. Would i choose bitterness or would i choose grace? Oh, how my natural tendency was to choose bitterness. But God provided courage to choose grace. With that grace came freedom - a freedom to love and even accept the person who was the source of such pain."
It has always been put on my fridge...but i never really bothered to read it. But now that ive understood it, i found a new reason to...be happy. Its not for friends that i have, or material gains that i get. But its for the grace and freedom of it all.
I guess geof was also quite right...i really jump to conclusions too easily...and that really hinders me from keeping myself optimistic and happy.
*happies*
wishing;
6:09 PM
Monday, January 15, 2007
these few days feel so...empty. Like there's nothing for me to do...no time for my ownself. But infact i do find time to do the stuffs i want to do, but in the end these stuffs that i wanna do arent really those that i really wish to achieve. Then in the end i start procrastinating...and everything, so ephemeral, would suddenly dissapear the next day. It has been hmwk and hmwk...and perhaps some mapling. But i play to haf fun, but i want to find something for my own self to do, to reflect on, so that i would be able to improve in the future. but i guess all these things take perserverance and time...which i highly doubt i have.
lets just wait.
wishing;
10:01 PM
Wednesday, January 10, 2007
omg i stayed up till 530am this morning! Stupid chinese bkreview): lucky very nice earthworm gave me his bkreview...but being the very honest and original person that i am, i obviously paraphrased alot of stuffs^^ OWN...then i went to slp from 530 until 7(: hahahahhahhaa but our beloved *monitor* doesnt take attendance so i managed to reach class at 8, ponned assembly and came in time for lessons! heh.
WIN.
oh ya and today for PE i scored THE FIRST EVER GOAL IN MY SECONDARY SCHOOL LIFE. omg...and it wasnt fascinating or anything...i just kicked it in, but tom(goalie) thought i was on his team, so kena jacked then i score yay(: so zhun.
WIN.
then after school we were playing wif a tennis ball in class, then i rammed it against the wall, wanted to hit the projector screen pole thing, but in the end hit the clock. *crash* then clock got owned but my very good and accurate throw. lucky its after sch la...later teacher find out i DIE. ): so i need to like go and buy a clock later.
WIN.
Then i stayed back for sec1s investiture...to perform our like some punkrox'd remix of our batch song. good job la. Mr Law suddenly came to me and gave me an impt job: to press the thing to start the mist on the stage. ehh its actly kinda fun lol! hahhhahaa but in the end i dozed off backstage, so someone like took over pressing the mist button. yay i tink our punk version is damn own(: heh i tink sec1s think we are cool!
WIN.
oh then i go home that time drop at woodlands buy a clock at causewaypoint, then in the end jonho pounce on me. LOL WTH. he was like buying stuff for his gf, some random anniversary-.- hahahhaha he wanted to go buy a tasmanian baby at minitoons, but then i saw one downstairs. he dun believe, then went to bet wif me xD if im wrong, he kill me-.- if im right, he gets hiok to kiss me >< lol then in the end i was right...and i saved him 95cents! OMG heh...jonho gf not chio(:
WIN.
now im tired at home, without a clock, so im gonna kop one from my room and bring it to sch and hope the teachers cant tell its different colours. ^^ lol must go sch tmr early, then can replace without anyone seeing(: lol today super slpy...need more sleep. zzz.
wishing;
10:05 PM
Sunday, January 07, 2007
lol omg today is super pro! 10am-10pm good job. waaah now so tired.
anyways, we had like one whole class to ourselves...hehe then toh got some uber big banner that has damn bad printing quality...lol. b.s. really looked like b.s. la(: hahhahahaa then we went to buy those 3M stick-on hooks, then when you pull something from the bottom can take out without destroying the paints on the wall. then in the end still spam masking tape on it xD
yay its damn fun seeing so many little boys calling you seniors. damn high now ^^ hahhahhahaa its these little things that make you feel happy for a day or so...then they start daoing you when sch really starts for them -.- hmph. i went to perform for the finale...then they were like so ill-disciplined. yanny had to like say "may i have your attention please, sec1s" 5 times before they decided to listen to him...but then later i talked to paultern-headboy<3- and he was like "its our fault, we never organise finale properly...they're an excellent batch" wahh he's still so patient and nice lo(:
ohhh then after all the sec1s came and before the parents came, all the musical groups took out their instruments to the corridor and started jamming lol. thomas ang took his damn big chinese drums and started his leet haxxed drumming skills. hiokhong and jonho went to play elec and bass and blasted on their amps lo...but later nat came out from the bb room and played the bagpipe...omg its damn loud wth. so in the end hiok and jonho gave up playing random heavy metal soloes and played amazing grace wif nat. LOL! amazing grace wif distortion...-.-" super cool...now hiok wanna jam wif nat, pro la electric and bagpipe o.O
ohhh then at the end of it, they went to dunk paultern, jonlim, willzhang, michaelbin into the swimming pool late at nite lo...poor them so wet xD hahahahhahaa then all of them were like super red wif sunburn all over. heh good job PSLs, i just hope we dun get anymore danielcheongs(: hahahhahahhaa!
nownow im v slpy. so maybe ill slp. or ill stay on the com. dunno la. finish blogging for todays.
wishing;
12:01 AM
Friday, January 05, 2007
YAY I BOUGHT ANOTHER PACK OF ANDES CHOC PARFAIT THINS!
^^ omg on high now. just like ate 7 just now...i tink im gonna finish it like by this wk lol(:
its finally fridayy~hhahahaha and i found out wad's TGIF from my sis xD
hhahahaa aniwaes TGIF! but i still nid to do the stupid book review -.-
i tink niuyi's quite nice lehs...then we had to like go up front of class and tell everyone wad ur name meant...when i went up then everyone like randomly laughed =.= then of all nice consoling things to say, she said this:
ni3 men2 bu2 yao4 qi1 fu4 ruo4 xiao3 le4!
omg ultimate suannage. but she got good intentions la...and somehow she has a fetish for rubbing my head.
argh. hahhahha i guess im too irresistable! yay xD
that's why you're reading my blog now, ya? (:
wishing;
7:46 PM
Thursday, January 04, 2007
omg our class seating owns. im now seating beside kevin, diagonally behind merrill, behind joshua and er diagonally behind jotham too. ok nvm ill *try to* draw it out.
merrill--joshua--jotham
kevin---me
ok so im in like so super own position.
since kevin's left handed like me, he keeps using his right hand to shenzhangg my arm when i try to write, and i cant do anything cause he's left handed. ...dammit ):
then merrill will just throw stuffs at me i guess...just not the pingpong ball anymore. please. actly regardless of where he sits he's still gonna jack me somehow lo xD
joshua's just gonna keep kopping my pencilcase...influenced by merrill hmph.
and jotham will turn around sometimes and suan me wif his amazing intellect. ^^
lol they're nice ppl. really! hurhur...aniwaes i tink now rjc canteen's gonna be my canteen for the rest of sec4. hehe the food's there quite nice(: lol also can go visit geofried! hahhhahhaa~
waah sat's gonna be raffles trail. gonna be super bz on fri wif all the decos! so sad. *sads*
onaka ga itai...i wanna go dinner now! byebyes. <3
wishing;
6:19 PM
