Friday, June 29, 2007
i've been so bored these few days, i just go to my room and ponder about what i really missed most from my childhood, from my past...if i actually do.
and i think what i miss most is probably not what anyone of you would miss at all. whatsoever.
i miss blue's clues! T.T it was my favourite show loh...and blue is damn cute and that guy oh ya steve he's damn interactive and funny too xD oh oh then there was periwinkle the kitten and mr. salt and mrs. pepper, shovel and pail...and not forgetting, MAILBOX(: who delievers some mail halfway through the show xD aw mans i miss them so much. now there's the new guy called joe and he's some boring zz.
hahahha. i seem so immature, but it's really these simple things in life that make me think life's worth it. or perhaps it's because i didn't feel burdened then...
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Now it's time for so long,
But we'll sing just one more song,
Thanks for doin' your part, you sure are smart,
You know, with me and you
and our friend Blue
We can do anything that we wanna do!
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wishing;
11:00 PM
Thursday, June 21, 2007
hahahha ytd was quite very fun...but i'm afraid i can't talk much about it.
anyways.
IM A FREAKING BASS WTH!
toh is very good, he just hates me la. 'cause that morning i warmed up alot of my falsetto in botanical gardens -.- so i went for kwyr and sang most of tenor in falsetto. then got one part toh think we keep going out of tune, so he get one by one sing. then i sing falsetto loh...so he thought i couldn't reach the note and told me go bass. verywin.
oh yes and fried's house and room damn nice and big. but v stuffy sia. can't you open the windows ABIT. lol carpets comfy...no need bed la! and your room is twice the size of mine please. sian i should get to decorating my room sometime.
okayokay on to the chinese project: avian flu. we did much at your house, eh fried? (:
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it's like you never came into my life...
wishing;
11:49 AM
Sunday, June 17, 2007
YAY ITS FATHERS' DAY! happy fathers' day mr. teo!(:
this is a tribute to him: teo. wahahhahaaa!
omg its just damn qiao how everything mr teo and i do seem do occur at the same time...and it's not just one incident la!
first i changed my specs to those plastics ones...then sch reopen, saw teo wif the same kind of specs lol! but more poseur la(:
then i went to get a haircut...and the next day he had a haircut as well! omg.
oh ya there was also the time when i dropped my phone in the toilet, so i had to replace it. so i went to replace it with a blue sony ericsson z610i. i think a few days later, teo came into class and had to take a call, so he took out his phone...AND OMG IT WAS Z610I TOO!! wth la...but it was black(: hahaha but its still damn freaky how we changed the same phone at the same time wah lao o.O
yeahh and after we took our 2.4 for napfa i went to ask him how much he got for his napfa when he was my age...and he got 11mins too omg! wth hahahhaaa damn cool sia.
lol i would upload the poseur specs compilation of our class wearing my specs -.- if i knew how xD so some other time when i finally learn(:
hahaha teo hahaahaa wingame.
wishing;
12:16 AM
Saturday, June 16, 2007
omg have you ever felt that you suddenly tripped and fell in your dream, or like a roller coaster ride when you were sleeping?
i'm not sure how i'd describe it, but its like i got butterflies in my stomach, some quesy uncomfortable feeling. it's been happening to me again quite recently, though it stopped when i was quite young.
but the feeling's kinda cool, ya?
if you feel it too, or know what i'm talking about...please tag about it! even better if you know what this is called (: i wouldn't mind calling it dreamfall though...funky sia.
then there's something else: i dream that i've woken up, and atually washed up and eaten breakfast, and carried on with my life...but somehow i can't wake up from this dream, and it keeps recurring after reaching a certain point in that day. and each version is slightly different from the earlier ones...according to how it ends. but usually i die i think xD
tell me if you get that too...its damn freaky >.<
anyway some people say your dream will never go beyond your death, as dreams come from memories and experiences, and we won't know death until we experience it, ya? but by then...it'll probably too late.
wishing;
10:41 PM
many times i'm just at a loss of words that i could say, and then i'll just type "haha" or "lol"; i really wish i could change this damn habit, because it gets to me many times, when our conversation becomes full of hahas and lols, lacking any proper content whatsoever. & i'm really sorry for that.
just as there are filler posts for blogs, there's filler convos for msn. and not just msn. even in our normal conversations, i'm just at a loss...i don't know what to say to you. it's not that you bore me, or that i'm emo, but i'm really not one who would know how to talk very comfortably with another, much less start a conversation nicely. it's usually a hi or maybe a yo or an oi, but i really don't feel good not being able to tell you how i feel.
is this a facade? or just the lack of ability to communicate?
i may not be able to say this to you face to face, but just know that i'll always be there.
wishing;
1:15 PM
Friday, June 15, 2007
while people look toward the future, bracing themselves for what's ahead,
i find myself, buried in the past, finding comfort in the memories i hold so dearly in my heart.
family, friends; those who left me for a better place above.
when people leave your life, it's hard to carry on.
yet it's so easy to let people out of your life.
they slip away from our sight, just like that.
and they're gone forever.
we miss them so much, we don't want to look at what's ahead of us.
but instead, we seek those memories and live in it.
nostalgia overwhelmes, & we fail to see our lives as it really is; what life holds for us.
the future, be it happy or sad, grievous or glad, we have to accept the way it is.
& no way will living in the past change that fact.
i love my past, and i cherish my memories. i would much rather live in the past, than ever face up to the cold harsh reality.
at least there's certainty in the past.
the only dependable thing about the future is uncertainty.
how could i escape this pathetic delusion? this delusion of comfort and love?
only time will tell.
i'll live with my past.
i'll live in the present.
& i'll live for the future.
that's what life's worth living for, ya?
wishing;
10:58 PM
Monday, June 11, 2007
oh mans havent slept very much the whole week.
mon-weds = choir camp
thurs-suns = moose's chalet
lol forgot lots abt kwyrkmp alr but i think it was fun. at least better than the first one! aeRoVision lol...nice theme. hope choir will keep true to it...at least until we leave. and thanks linan for the happy tree friends marathon lol, all the secones freak out until we stopped watching -.-
uhh anyway moose chalet was damn big. like government bungalow big. there was auntie, auntie, auntie, uncle and the grandma (or grand auntie wdv) there, and oh ya got noah too.wth the one who parted the red sea. oops nvm that's moses. noah built the ark.
anyway we parapara-ed the whole 4 days...and now i feel kinda weird not dancing o.O lol moose is pro at parapara, he dance like dunno wad la. ehh and ben too. OH YA KEKKI is leet haxxed omg he got 100% on his first try (y). and austin kinda hardcored the whole thing the whole time. disgustingly pro.
and i barely slept throughout these 7 days, that now my eye's bleeding T.T or maybe its due to other reasons, HMM?! grr. but anyway i think its the no sleep la. we played bridge, then snap, then cheat, and we got stuck on cheat. so we didnt play anymore cheat after that. damn you, kevin. you can't cheat for nuts -.-
this is so annoying i keep narrating my life here like a ranter/raver/narrator even i find this boring. ill try to get nicer stuffs on la. but keep in mind that i don't write all this for you. if you wanna read people who blog for others, go read xiaxue.
im sorry im pist my eye is bleeding and i dun like it. i prolly should sleep more.
wishing;
9:40 PM
