Monday, May 26, 2008
ok i never blog for damn long, and i wanna sleep because it's quite late alr.
so i'll just list down what happened over the last few days to just keep record of memories.
thurs: butter factory gig
i didn't really take pics and all, but it was quite a nice place and it was my first time at a club! quite fun with random people there chilling out (it was quite cold there). ya then after performance i wandered around clarke quay to find my way to the mrt. (Y)
fri: jazz farewell
oh we had farewell at ruiling's house which is damn bingbongbiang big, and her maid made good lasagne! and it's a really nice place, and ruiling's mum is manly she can reach low c sharp while talking omg damn cool.
sat: ben and dan birthday celebration & econs makeup lesson
went sch quite early to celebrate bentay and daniellee's birthdays, and while waiting for dan, ben started burning josh's and nat's hair. quite cool the hair becomes brown at the ends. so either way whether you spam swim or you spam fire, your hair still turns brown.
then econs makeup was quite sian, but i kinda managed to clarify my doubts and understand the externalities thing so quite happy and content.
sun: soccer & ddr
went to church and omg truth min was playing for worship! hahahha quite nice and omg damn hot. k anyway worship was fresh and fun, but sermon still abit sian, at least i didn't sleep. ^^
then stone in church and sang "rain down" then it rained and the coffee shop we went to eat lunch at started flooding from the vents at the ceiling! damn pro win luckily we weren't directly below them. so we stopped singing and the rain kinda became less hardcore.
after eating we went to westspring secsch field to watch soccer match between us and church of singapore. lol damn cool first match against another church. it was hardcore raining there, and i really admire our players for keeping their stand even in the midst of the rain and the hardcore pushing and ramming and shoving by the other church. yay good job. (Y) we got owned 8-0 though, but i think it's good experience for them, and the results were expected, considering the other church has never lost any match with other churches.
k after soccer the sky cleared and we went to westmall to eat and play ddr and eat icekachang and then walk out to eat botakjones whoopass fries. mmm food journey ftw use a hell lot of money omg but it was quite worth it! (:
now i back i v tired and wanna sleep so gdnites and tmr no sch yay!
wishing;
12:28 AM
Friday, May 09, 2008
hahahhaa class camp was for great fun, even though our ct reps were POrNNING zzz.
yisheng was spamming shit and qianwen sprained her leg so she mugging ki.
wtf.
anyway first day got rope course, which is like climb up a wall of random wooden beams (or planks) lol. it was quite simple la, but it showed me that it was impt to help your friend get up since you can get up, or else he can't get it up, and that's a really inconvenient truth ): oh ya and gabbytan got gangraped as anchor because there were extra ppl piling on him and chriskwan was sitting on him so that he won't get pulled up by waicheung (who is quite big). hahaha haxxedpro.
we had good lunch at ri then we went to the rope course where you need to walk across the 2 towers. k that be bit of the scary, but fun too. after that we went to ubin.
ubin is quite waturf. the dogs got uh...big dingdongs. and we saw the ah-nan actor, the one who always acts damn gangster and sometimes acts like a sissy too. quite cool. but ubin is hardcore got hell lot of mosquitoes, or just a few very persistent ones. they also got grasshoppers and spiders and red ants (Y) and they kept crawling onto our food wtf dinner was good. soup with soot tastes damn good. mmm. and carcinogenic too. k la really it was quite good. oh ya and waicheung is pro firegod. thomasang modify lighter, then waicheung modify bunsen burner. wtf the flame was fuxxing big la wtf LIKE YOUR MONITOR SIZE FREAK DAMN BIG LA ARGH! ggxx!
then cleanup then go slp but i couldn't slp because i was thinking about the post before this one zzz there's no more chance in rjc left i suppose. everything gets done/handed over/leadershipped so quickly. so after sianning i went to sleep and the mosquitoes spammed me with bites wtf. but luckily there was lightning risk so we didn't sleep in our tents but on some sheltered wooden ground place beside the canteen which was really quite good la, compared to arts students who had to suffer the shirttent to blanket the night. lol lol.
next day was good we woke up early ate breakfast early went kayak early got our asses wet early spewed vulgarities during kayaking early and got to oyster farm early. lol the instructor got quite pist with us swearing and thomasang and chengxiang saying your mum jokes lol. but it be quite of the normal in our class gg. anyway we had alot of time to waste. so we did our own stuff.
i went to drink more tap water mmm.
tzehan went to mug his notes.
sharon went to spam 6 slices of bread and jam and milo.
waicheung and chris went to sit on steps and listen to mp3.
chengxiang continued swearing with his china accent.
jessica went to asthma. for damn epic win waturf zzz -_-.
aiya heck la whatever i don't care. or rather, i shouldn't care.
k so after that we went back jetty to singapore and rjc and home.
and i stayed in sch to talk to suet and new chorale chair lisa ftw (Y). i don't even know why i bother so much about chorale stuff; i guess it's because alot of the people there are my friends, actly mostly the j2s. which is actually part of the reason why i didn't join. friendfriend relationship and seniorjunior relationship are quite different and they either make or break one another. so i didn't wanna risk it.
well i wish chorale exco best of luck!
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wahh council handover alr, no more melodious pledgeoetry in morning...or will there?
i guess i should give others a chance before passing judgements so quickly.
1J.
argh stopit stopit zzz.
k should slp now it be late. and it was long day.
wishing;
9:59 PM
Monday, May 05, 2008
everyone around me's getting all the leadership positions.
like those people who aren't really paultern-esque still get leadership positions.
daniel photog chair
kevinlim guitar chair
weijian commscience chair
it's damn stressing.
sometimes i do wonder what it feels like to have the chance to organise stuff for your cca and lead them and be proud when we do well for competitions.
well it's quite hard to get any more chances.
sigh, everyone's gonna be busy with their ccas and being good chairs, while i just work hard and do my best as a vocalist in jazz. sure, they say "oh you still can contribute even though you're not in exco!", but i know that there's alot of leadership experience i'm missing out.
being peripheral is sian.
truthfully, i wish i could do something for my cca (as in something really important like organising stuff and leading practices etc.) and feel important and needed and at the end contented for doing such a fine job leading the cca,
instead of shing away from the limelight and being some nobody.
just do my best i guess, that's the best i can do.
wishing;
10:16 PM
Friday, May 02, 2008
i've been wanting to say these for quite some time alr, but it seems to slip out of my mine whenever i come back home zzz.
anyway, i think people are really changing hell lots around us, just that sometimes its so subtle you don't really notice. there are however, more obvious changes in certain people.
take for instance bishan gay.
when i was in ri, he'd always gaze and smile at me.
but now that i'm in rjc, whenever i walk past kfc (i still do see him sometimes), he dosen't freaking smile at me anymore! ): and when i look back, i kinda miss it and regret not waving back etc.
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well there's 2 things we can learn from here:
1) People will change, and it's probably because you did.
we see everyone changing all around us, and we judge and criticise them for becoming more waturfed, but we fail to realise that we could actually have had a role in the reason they changed, and how they changed. this dosen't apply to strangers of course.
anyway i think the most important drawback from it is that, we should always look at ourselves, what are our character flaws, whether or not we ourselves have changed, then evaluate if we're actually in a position fit to criticise others.
i wanna counter my arguement but it's damn weird, but still.
hey i don't quite agree, i think that we should critisize others if they haven't changed for the better (quite subjective zzz we won't go there), BUT we should bestly give constructive criticism, those that won't make others emo and cry and sob about how pathetic they are. after all, only the eye outside the visual field sees the visual field most completely, as compared to those within the field.
well sometimes they need a wakeup call, so abit of hardcore judgements are occasionally fine i guess (:
2)Forget regret.
we shouldn't wait for things to pass before we learn to cherish them. sound damn kleeshay but i think it's really true. when you start missing/regretting something that's already in the past, nostalgia kicks in.
which goes through this process:
nostalgia > reminescence > indulging in happy memories / self-pitying in regret > no escape ftw until someone shakes you back to reality (Y)
cold, harsh reality.
well we really should weigh the pros and cons here.
reminiscing feels oh so good since you got happy memories, and you got self pity for the bad memories. we all know that self-pity's real fun and dandy; why should we even sacrifice all of these for the harsh awakening to the ocean of reality?
lol it be quite simple.
because we're living beings. this means that we're living at this moment, in the present. and whatever we do during this moment can chart our path in the future. should we dwell in the past, we really won't be achieving anything our whole lives.
nostalgia is like drugs.
after tasting it, you feel like you're ^^ and you don't wanna leave the feeling. but it's addictive too; you'll want it over and over and on and on till you drop dead without accomplishing anything but snorting memoryjuana.
kinda living a wasted, useless, unworthy life, isn't it.
well i wanna counter myself again so there.
nostalgia is good in moderation, just like marijuana. k not marijuana but uhh opium. yes opium. opium helps provide temporary pain relief, but over reliance would ggxx you. similarly, nostalgia helps bring you back on the right track in life.
when you're down and out, think about happy moments and realise that it's possible to be happy in this screwed up world. think about things you regretted and find the reason to set your life straight and move on.
so ya i didn't really think of a conclusion, and i don't bother. it's up to you to decide for yourself how you're gonna face the changes that's happening around you.
one thing's for sure, it's not gonna leave anytime soon, so either way, you gotta live with it.
wishing;
9:53 PM
