I have loved many things.
Like the clouds in the scorching Summer heat,
and rain that freezes the skin;
The scent of cool Autumn breezes,
and the gentle softness of the earth during Spring;
The cosiness of a convenience store at the dead of night;
The slight chill in the air after school;
The smell of the blackboard duster;
The rawr of a faraway truck,
echoing deep in the night...
And I wanted us to experience them together, always.
Click on the wings at the side to navi!^^
Monday, June 16, 2008
Today (or rather, yesterday) we sent my sis to japan. I felt abit sad since she’s gonna be there for 2 weeks, but there were other things that filled my mind. Dunno I just wrote this descriptive prose-y thing.
Through the dreamy, half-awake eyes of a typical young boy, even mundane reality becomes a surreal fantasy. Or perhaps it’s night at work. The night seems to possess a certain intrinsic property that makes objects glisten with a tinge of mystery. All around us, the darkness blankets everything in shadows, melding them back into the blankness of the night sky. The daylight gives everything its personal colour; silver towers, brick red apartments, the blue ‘IKEA’ mall. But when night falls, circumstances change. Everything becomes bleak; all their colours converge into austere silhouettes, just like the reciprocal of infinity tending to zero. Seems like a certain type of communism is at work here. The communism of darkness.
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But amidst the darkness, the endless procession of street lights lining the roadsides pokes pockets of light into the sable sky, like sparse, anomalous points on a graph, guiding the night travellers to their various destinations. And too, the moon lights up the sky with a certain faint, distant glow, that also radiates an enigmatic aura of fear and yet, elegance.
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We advance on the asphalt road towards the airport. Every once in a while, the colour of the tar changes; different intensity of grey, signifying the age of the roads. Just like humans, our hair colour changes as we age. As parallel as it may seem, we are still at a disadvantage. Roads get replaced once they becomes too worn. But for us, our ephemeral youth, once gone, will never return. Time comes, and runs away so far we’ll never have chance to grasp it again. But time leaves footprints, and these are memories etched in our mind, will forever remain as long as we want to remember.
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In the refuge of the automation, the bushes lining the road accelerate towards me in a flurry of shades and hues of green, and everything mixes into an average green. Even the stationary roars into life when the eye of motion sees. Everything that appears is merely a matter of perception; things will appear to suit your desires. But however alluring these mirages appear, they’re all in the mind. Delusions are formed this way; well, so is hope. Hope is perhaps just a nicer way of saying delusions.
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As I peer out the side window, I see the morning dew beginning to form, but beyond that, I see the myriad of buildings lining the earth and all are coming and moving away. Those in the foreground move faster, those in the background move slower. Everything moves at different velocities, just like how our lives move at various speeds when we’re at different milestones. Of joy and pain, in the end what matters is our drive to succeed amidst opposition.
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In the middle of the night, when your car’s the only vehicle on the road, a certain fear grips you; on that lonesome road everything seems to overwhelm you with emotion. Various emotions, just perhaps not happiness and the related. However, even in daylight there will be times we would be alone, and yet we don’t feel such strong gripping trepidation in our hearts. Darkness works in ways we can’t understand, slowly creeping into our heads, toying with our minds in ways unimaginable.
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Haiya life.
It’s damn no link, but 3P06 & 4P07 were the best times of my life, and you guys were the best classmates ever. I hopes these memories don’t fade away into some reclusive corner in my head. ):
wishing; 1:15 AM
Saturday, June 14, 2008
something significant to blog about, finally. sometimes significant stuff don't mean nuts to others, but well, they weren't meant as memories for you anyway. significant to self.
i don't really want to reflect or look in retrospection of the chalet, because i'll feel depressed and nostalgic and start being an escapist bastard and deny the ruthless reality that awaits us all when june hols end. that means failing to mug and failing CTs.
= gg.
what's worse however, is that i'll begin to look back to 3p and 4p and how much fun we had and compare all that memories with...now. argh screw you blog, now i feel 'memoriesque' (ooh nice word.) so i'll just list the stuff we used to do in 4p. it's hard to forget, these memories;
remember, our jerlene then said, "you guys are fucking noisy!" our mealworms our hacking com to play liero our reinforced service pack 2 our extra cirricular gundam seed screenings our mr tan, chee wan go toilet our paper bullet wars our scissor/knife throwings where i nearly killed merrill sorry ): our cutting of hair during class our tedric eating during lessons and teachers thinking he was sleeping our whole class eating in class (ya omg even willzhang brought drinks!) our yumyum challenge our great chemistry escape (which got owned because some ass laughed lol =.=) our slau pointing middle finger through the piece of paper and getting owned by kristie chen our glueing of chairs on the walls of ceilings of 3p (and maas was like "there has to be a proper scientific explaination for this!") our reckless drivin'! our pingpong ball on the whiteboard in front of the class (which nomore-ed in 4p DAMN YOU SR BLOCK!) our ghost drawers woooohh our curtains that keep getting banned but still put up our lit plays! (Y) our internet is for porn our byecheebyecheebyecheecheebyeshit our andrew liking girls who look like 'peng with long hair' our fong wasting a period scolding us about 'WALAO! MY GOD!' our lanning of cs and dota our niuyi confiscating slau's psp and slau sneaking it back lol our chunmeng owning the projector screen walao your fault la dad you suck tmd our chunmeng chunmeng and yunghow yunghow for free wireless in school our mealworms in the closet that...the class next year raised as well o.O our early mornings sleeping on the carpeted floor (with hell lot of staple bullets, ow.) our ET's friendly finger! _|_ our chee breaking almost everything he touches (pingpong ball, stick, DOOR LEADING TO 4Q WATURF etc.) our inthe class water bottle soccer! our inthe class softball! our taupoking of paul almost everyday our taupoking of peng after taupoking paul our mass throwing of chairs and tables after eoys our seetow breaking the (broken) softball with his head etc.
aiya i damn sleepy i should continue with my post.
anyway i'll try to list down the stuff we did during each of the days (:
tuesday: -meet kevinlim at macs to mug physics -seetow came and said 'fuckyou' -nat and josh came -ate at food court and went arcade -waited at busstop and played locoroco -went to chalet and unpacked -played waterbottle soccer and broke my sandals -i think we went arcade and leo owned at guilty gear on his first try! -shit i can't remember but we slept and i played many songs and enormous penis
wednesday: -ben and josh woke up early to go sch, nat woke up to swim and wet the whole bathroom -i woke up to find nobody awake at the chalet -ate nutella and waited until the rest woke up -went para-ing with edmund moose leo seetow (seetow looked like he was gonna fight someone while dancing) -ben josh came back and nat cooked pasta and added msg which he mistook for salt -ate screwed pasta -para more LOL PARAMORE knvm -swam a hell lot then showered -i slept for like 4+ hours while they went to downtown east -went para-ing somemore and edmund started owning at guilty gear too -went downtown east buy bananamilk -ate meepok noodles and watched hp leo moose play dota -spammed bridge (i learnt how to play properly!) and went to sleep
thursday: -ben and josh went to sch again -ate bao for breakfast and mugged chem yeah! -nick came -watched nick edmund leo moose play worms -para-ed at arcade -ben josh came back we ate pasta with better sauce this time (seafood made by mother moose) -played worms with ben josh nat -played bigbangbeat with leo -played liero with ben -everyone started coming so ben went to start bbq fire -everyone went to swim except for me and will -ate food and screwed around zzz -celebrated gan's birthday with normal cake and song -celebrated ben's birthday with abnormal waterbombed coffee durian essence shit and fire extinguisher ftw! -went to take photos for everyone on the waterslide lol -played basketball with merrill seetow slau and jeremiah (moose cousin i think) and bent my specs lol -changed shirt and packed up -seetow hugged (and lifted and thrusted) me and i went home with will and jot (jot's parents sent us to simei mrt thanks)
well that took a long while, until my mum scolded me wth. anyway i wanted to keep memories in case they drift away to some desolate abyss in the unconscious of my mind.
by the way, thanks for everything, moose! (:
k i don't know how to conclude, so gen said say bye.
bye.
wishing; 12:09 AM
Sunday, June 01, 2008
Ooohh it's second week of hols already and i haven't really done much. ohnoes ):
hm what i've done:
finished watching all the dgrayman episodes until now.
found out that i still can't put on braces. (dammit!)
cleared the table of my room.
replaced my broken D string on my guitar. (with the wrong type of string but who cares it's still a D)
powerleveled my FF2 chars, until i can't PL them on normal monsters anymore; i had to PL on bosses, and i gotta equip them with the lousiest weapon, or else they'll ohko the boss wth. damn wickedsick game i should stop hardcoring. (Y)
went arcade play parapara and ddr! that one was fun.
stoned a hell lot at home, omg.
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i was thinking, about how i should use the rest of my holidays. i really don't want it to end up just like previous hols where i don't accomplish anything, until the last weekend where everyone just hardcores hmwk. now that there's no holiday homework, i don't feel alot of motivation to do my work/revise/mug etc. sure, there's CTs and that's already a form of pressure, but it still seems very...distant, unmaterialised. not saying that i don't perceive it, but it's not having a succinct impact on my life now.
oh hedonism overwhelms, boohoo, living such myopic lives. i am conscious, though, that i have to plan ahead. someday i must sit down and think about this, and stop picking up my psp to play ff2 or my phone to play handphone games. gah. in fact, now that i'm sitting down on my computer chair and thinking about it, i might as well continue.
schedule for junehols: 1 Jun: whine and moan about how the week had alreay ended and realise i haven't done anything productive and sit down and think about how to make it productive.
2-3 Jun: clear my table, focus, Physics 4-5 Jun: Chem 6-7 Jun: Maths 8 Jun: rest, read some ki and finish mysidia and find minwu in ff2. 9 Jun: probably got some CIP on/fetch chorale people back. 10-13 Jun: rest (cannot leak secret!) 14 Jun onwards: TOTAL MUGGING DURATION!!11!!!1!111 (TMD)
oh yes and there's pw to be approved wtf. we can do it! ^^ we just have to revamp our WHOLE ENTIRE GPP GAWR! (maybe not if we can find the crucial link btw impact of modern. and impact of that on sector.)
k just finished episode 85. and there's pasar malam at my place downstairs! yay ramly's (: and the new arcade has parapara and ddr and guitarmania and drummania (and a hell lot of bengs/lians, fun. seems like they're damn pro though; must work hard. T_T)
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oh josh sent me nice song vid: thank you lord. enjoy (:
wishing; 10:23 PM
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'To touch your hand...'
'To hear your voice...'
'To see your smiling face.'
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~Wishlist~
& omg i really wanna type stuff in this wishlist so that people can get me stuff that i want BUT I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO GET GAH
