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Thursday, July 31, 2008
だめです!!!
美沙子さんは帰国をしようとしている! 但し, 貴方と僕は写真を撮らなかった! T_T
僕は美沙子さんが恋する!!
さようなら, 美沙子さん...
wishing;
8:36 PM
Tuesday, July 29, 2008
AAHHHHH misako! <33
wishing;
11:40 PM
Saturday, July 26, 2008
hahhahaa i can't trust IE bookmarks so i won't risk favouriting it there and letting it dissapear when i reformat my com! T_T
so here is seishun amigo, by kame and yamapi (:
enjoy!
wishing;
12:06 AM
Tuesday, July 22, 2008
as each day passes, the music played within my earphones grow louder, spewing decibels of colourful melodies through my ears.
i don't even know whether it's good. i really had to drown out all my external distractions, physical stray sounds emanating from every corner of the living room; the hongkong drama serials running on TV, the clanging of plates when my mum's washing up the dinner dishes, my dad's abnormal (but familiar) silence,
music really helps to get drown out these negative externalities. but i think what music's really good at is how it's able to distract my mind from the negative 'internalities'? yepps, blast it and cleanse my thoughts from the inside out.
or rather i'm just being escapist seeking solace in ephemeral musical highs. who knows, maybe music will eventually have a profound effect on my well-being.
and i still believe that music has a way to one's heart, adjusting your emotions to tune to what you listen to.
sometimes when the music plays, i just wanna sing/scream along, but in the confined space of this musically anti-social realm (my house), it just won't happen, dammit.
~
josh was talking to me about christian songs, so i went to search for a song that i've only sung once, but stayed with my until now.
hahhahaa luckily i still rmb the name (:
presenting, el shaddai.
please listen & enjoy ^^
El shaddai, el shaddai,
El-elyon na adonai,
Age to age you're still the same,
By the power of the name.
El shaddai, el shaddai,
Erkamka na adonai,
We will praise and lift you high,
El shaddai.
so heartwrenching. yet it makes my heart feel full.
wishing;
8:48 PM
Monday, July 21, 2008
k i just read josh's post, i think i should prepare for my demise as well.
i better prepare my will now.
burn everything i have (even my friends!) so that they'll be with me in heaven. (Y)
hahhahaa i think i'll add stalkers to under 'friends' as well (:
k thanks for the celebration in advance, in case i don't have a chance to type anymore. ^^
wishing;
12:37 AM
Saturday, July 19, 2008
okay today was quite a sian day, i kinda just wasted it all until vocal delights. and i had to leave jazz halfway even though we were learning scatting ): i wanna learn how to scat well! ^^
anyway i think i'm gonna say i'll miss the j2s much much, which would really take up alot of space on my blog and time of my sleep, and i really don't think i would know how to put it nicely into words the way uhhh linguistically fluent (and coherent) people would be able to put it.
so ya, i'm really gonna miss all of you! ):
well on the bright side, i got to know quite a few of the bunch of j1 chorale ppl! damn retarded isa keeps mocking me wth. and the guys i obviously know alr lol. hahaha i hope we'll bond together as well as the j2s did! (maybe better yay)
hmm i think i'm gonna forget this feeling of missing, and i can't really put the feeling into words, so i'll just type out most of the concert to help me...reminisce?
punch
isa - little red riding hood
boys - short policeman
lionel - fat policeman
amy - cheena bwitch
bobo - minion
gen - tree/gendilocks
suet - tree/snow white (my seven dwarves!)
joelle - rupunzel
bennett - humpy dumpy
isa lost her <3 pot so boys and lionel come and help her but she gotta get eggshell goldenhair and ask suet to brew it for her. uh gen ate some random porridge or sth, so anyway amy went to ask bobo to get rid of them all. so isaboyslionel went to pluck out bennett's eggshell from his neck, took a golden hair from joelle's red (dyed by bobominion) hair and asked suet to brew. noo i can't rmb anymore omg. there was some retarded fighting though. and amy casted 'O MAGNUM MYSTERIUM!' =.= k this fails i'm pathetically narrating it. ):
oh but there was a part where boys said 'omg! she talked to me!' when he fake-emoed then isa went to talk to him XD awww.
oh nice dancing btw bobo, and amy is pro at covering up mistakes! (Y)
~
the rest of the concert was pretty singing, familiar tunes and new tunes interwoven into my mind, awakening memories and etching memories.
gah i'm not saying that the rest wasn't good, it's just that i'm tired and fiona whacked me on the head halfway through so i can barely rmb what happened. ):
anyway good job chorale! ^^
~
hope i'll get past this stupid 'mourning period' zzz.
wishing;
12:42 AM
Tuesday, July 15, 2008
hahahhaa i must admit this is one of the best birthdays i've had! (not like i remember much of my previous ones) k this gonna be a narrative post because i like to keep record of happy days.
okay i went to sch on mrt because my dad could not wake up to fetch me. at bishan i met melvin and he was walking fast. then i got to school and i wanted to go parade sq but nat called to me to go canteen. so i went canteen and i saw hp moose leo josh nat ben. lol moose hugged me and leo gave me black ferrero rocher. natbenjosh gave me a uh...thing spam-wrapped in 3rd floor toilet paper wtf. okay and i got cards from ben josh and kevin. one to mr teo, one to teoky and one to jorel. (Y) thanks anyway.
after flag raising (finally, after all the damn long announcements), we had free period so everyone zaoed to various places. i kinda stoned around and then someone told me need to go classroom because got relief teacher. oh then on my way there i met suet and cat and their class and suet kept hitting me because i was her age now muahahaa. i think i'm gonna miss them all sigh. okay anyway suet walked to maths lecture and i walked to a71 screw i hate a71 it's all the way top and all the way nearest to ri. the teacher was being a screwup but he said happy birthday yay. gabbytan was making announcement if we should have a class object like class jersey etc. i said class piercings and thomasang said class FBTs and i think class FBTs is a great idea since everyone gets class tops nobody gets class bottoms. but anyway tyranny of majority dammit we got some class hoodie (emoshit attire). (Y)
then lesson ended and i walked down and i met gen (who came out of maths lecture too i think) and she knows i joining back chorale (bigmouthsuet) and she blames me for not joining chorale when they were there. dunno how to say maybe i just won't say it. anyway i got another birthday hug yays. and i went to eat stuff at canteen. and me chengxiang waicheung soh srsly just stoned there until bell rang because the rest were still mugging at a71 wtf.
chem prac was quite interesting must rush against time to finish the experiment lololol but i don't usually like experiments on the whole. and i nearly forgot to take my present when lesson ended thanks chriskwan! >< oh ya btw i hate ri and rgs children they all don't have sch wth. zzz.
hm we had another break i can't rmb what i did i think i ate somemore (as usual) and 6y sang happy birthday (LOL YISHENG) and i got a card, with a pseudo-sharon on it (waicheung you asshole) and ya i went for ki later. oh ki was quite fun because we were talking about moral subjectivism where everyone's opinions are correct. so if i think that killing you is moral and you think that killing you is not moral, both of us are correct. which totally makes a hell lot of sense. mr chong then said like oh children love using it because it helps them rebel or sth "i can do this because i think it's right!" :x i kinda forgot most of what they discussed since well there wasn't really much discussion because sharon wasn't there. lol and we didn't stay back after class for the same reason.
okay so after ki was another break and i don't think i ate (i got sick of eating) so we just stoned and chriskwan brought me to see waicheung and chengxiang emoing at the watermelon steps but when we reached there they were gone. so it looked like we were emoing near there =.= ohya and wanjoo come for vocal delights! yay hahahhaa.
pe was boring, some $50 lecture with a pe teacher who lectures really well. i think in fact all the pe teachers are more interesting lecturers than academic lectuers. but i think academic lectuers have better handwriting. maybe because they have tablet pcs. ohwell. i was sitting beside jongan during lecture, tsk tsk jongan keep laughing at the lecturer!
after pe was sianning time, then it was physics remedial. i really don't wanna talk about it lest i start flaming people. o.O
so when the ordeal was over, i went to PAC to find readon for some informal auditions to see my range. hhahaa i feel proud of myself i could never connect my malevoice and falsetto before jazz. so now:
realvoice: low gsharp - eflat
gayvoice: c - high d
headvoice: high e - high high c sigh.
life sucks i sacrificed 3+ octaves upwards to get a measly 6 notes downwards wth.
hahaha on a brighter note (maybe gsharp?), it's a more useful and practical range. not like i'm gonna sing a quanquan solo =.=
oh and the small groups sound pretty good, considering they recently starting practicing. and geoffriedyongfengjoseph were the best! hahahahaa. good luck for vocal delights!
and now i'm at home hardcoring pw zzz. life wins. i got nice dinner though i don't even know what i ate but they tasted mmm!
~
dui mian de nu hai kan guo lai, kan guo lai, kan guo lai...
wishing;
8:51 PM
Friday, July 11, 2008
hahahahaa today i got back my past 2 papers, KI and econs!
now my grades spell SEUSS! for epic win.
wth i'm gonna get most improved for promos, i swear.
everyone gets As in class, but well it's good motivation for me i guess (:
WORK HARDER JOREL! DON'T PLAY MAPLE PRIVATE SERVER DAMMIT!
~
lol anyway after econs i went to rgskwyrknct with geof quan kia ivan and we met cat geet minsi there! oh ya wanjoo and suet didn't know how to get to acs so they kept calling quan and quan kept asking me to talk to them >.< lol acs brings back lots of memories, of much innocence then.
somehow when i entererd the concert hall i felt a sense of familiarity, and yet i knew that i didn't belong anymore. it's dilemmatic, but i guess it doesn't really affect me much. hhahaa being in ri seriously rocks, i could almost see myself change. but i've got memories of acs, be it blurry or rosy, i'll cherish them because memories are the only things we've got when everyone else leaves us.
hahahaa anyway, the concert was really quite nice, with like many many small groups and uhm amazingly great choreo (Y). srsly i think it's a rafflesian thing when we all can't do choreo for nuts. argh and the Twos (sop2s and alto2s) performed some really raunchy disturbing (but not very appealing/turning on) songs, where they started doing kinky suggestive actions, like stripping off their skirts on stage (no, they still had shorts underneath la sickos) and there was a part in the song where they all turned around and smacked their asses. damn win.
(on a sidenote, i bet paedo edmund would've been turned on by them o.O)
k that shouldn't be the only thing i rmbed argh. oh ya and the altos sounds damn manly, and fiona performs manlily too xD k no she just performs like a fiona. hahhaa anyway good job conducting and arranging the 6 songs collide (:
oh ya and they performed grease songs where there were people dressed up differently, mainly: the act cute girls, the manly girls and the randomly blue dress girl. hahahha all the songs were quite nice la, and there were parts where the act cute girls went to do act cute poses and the manly girls went uh do... manly poses =.= okay nevermind why can't girls be normal!? T_T
hmm i shouldn't end of this post on that note. so, uh, the concert was really nice and dynamic on the whole, srsly! it's like small groups and musicals and quite fun D: after all the rigid structure of normal choir concerts, it's fun to see one where people make a fool of enjoy themselves on stage!
anyway i just came back and i thought about my memories i had in acs. hmm actually nothing about acs, really, but more of memorable games like ffix and chocobo dungeon 2 (which i didn't finish because i felt too sad to). there was some parting scene from chocobo dungeon 2 where the girl (shiroma) had to leave lil' chocobo at some snowfield, and it was really sad! but i what i rmbed most about it was the music (well because it was quite nice and sad too) so i went to search for the vid but all the noobs who posted this vid couldn't rip the damn song! so finally after quite a while i got to the vid with the song! ^.^
oh yeah when i heard the song i was like omg i heard this song on one of the featured vids on youtube! and i actually posted this song in previous post but i didn't know that this was the exact same song. sometimes fate makes a fool of you, just for fun. or perhaps for other purposes unexplainable. if you had read my previous posts you'd probably know the song too. i think it's from ffvi, with cecil and cain etc. i'm lazy to look thru my archives so if you know the song title just tag(:
okay so here's the vid, shiroma's farewell.
enjoy!
tears fall down from memories of tears falling down.
will they come again?
wishing;
12:13 AM
Saturday, July 05, 2008
i've only gotten chem and physics back, but i'm already prepared to work a hell lot harder for promos already.
many things have changed; i've always thought that working hard on something would mean that one had to sacrifice another. but seeing the various people around me with so much they can call their own, i can't help but wonder if i really had put in my best.
many times we delude ourselves to thinking that we had done our best, for comfort and for closure, but in fact it serves as a means for complacency to come and stay, hidden amidst all the pseudo-hardwork.
failure after failure, one tends to blame it on oneself (ya self pity is fun too), but in the end when nothing's being done, well uh, nothing will be done.
i just afked for damn long and now i'm back to complete the post but i totally forgot what i was thinking about.
if they're can be so accomplished in whatever they pursue, i don't see why i can't. so from now on, i'll really push myself and work hard to get what i want. i'm part of reality, not merely an observer of it. that's why reality hurts, but it totally rocks when you see your ideal reality, moulded by your very acts.
rock on and work hard everyone!
nothing is impossible is nothing (Y)
wishing;
10:16 PM
~~~
'To touch your hand...'
'To hear your voice...'
'To see your smiling face.'
~~~
~Wishlist~
& omg i really wanna type stuff in this wishlist so that people can get me stuff that i want BUT I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO GET GAH
~Me~
Jorel.Chanky.Pory.Kwoks
150791;
RI4P07;
kwyred
RafflesJazzChorale
~~~
'Sorry I took so long...'
'It might take me years, decades...'
'But I'm coming for you.'
~~~
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Suet
Val
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Jiamin
J1s! :D
Daniel
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Eliza
Fiona
Guan
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Joel
Kangjie
Mich
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